Today after almost turning myself into a giant butterfinger-martini from eating way too many mini butterfingers and drinking chocolatini's. I had a post Halloween brunch with my peeps, catching them up on this past week of running into 2 Ex's. Really since June I've been running into Ex-BF's going as far back as high school. In seeing I have had these detached feelings. I was wondering why the detachment. If I felt indifferent about the situations that surrounded the relationship I had with them or the choice I made to just disengage from the entire relationship and my surroundings altogether.
This feeling of detachment is it healthy? Do I bury another bone just so I don't have to feel? Maybe running into them I'm not suppose to be reminded of the pain they have caused me but to see what part did I actually play in the relationship that was unhealthy. Can I admit to myself the truth of who I was then?
I would like to accept this detachment as a gift, as an opportunity to move forward and see what life might bring. But just now I realized first I have to FORGIVE MYSELF.
"Carpe Diem Today"
xoxo,
S.A.T.C.
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